What is this feeling that I have?

I’m torn in two by this time of the year. Yes, New Year’s Eve. Something that I look forward to but also dread at the same time.

On one hand

• a new year, a new start, new things to look forward to, new things to embrace
• a time for partying like there’s no tomorrow
• I can wear extremely sparkly and sequinned dresses that I would otherwise have no chances to
• I can be drink all the champagne in the world

On the other hand

• A year has already gone by?! What the hell have I done with my life the past year? A time for sad sad reflections and feeling like I’ve accomplished nothing 
• it’s a terrible time to go anywhere since there will be truckloads of people EVERYWHERE. I do not want to party. I do not even want to step outside the safety zone of my apartment door.
• I do not have any over-the-top sequinned and sparkly dresses. *I have nothing to wear for NYE* cue panic attack
• I will be really drunk and wake up terrible the next day.

So….do you all feel the dilemma that I feel? What is this feeling of dread that I have sitting in the pit of my stomach? Is it…*gasp*…AGE?? Am I too old for crowds, party and … too many young people? Oh My Goodness….what is going on?

So am I the only one or do you all feel this two-sided battle going on as well? I always love a good gathering with friends, but crowds and hangovers do scare me now….

And I DO NOT HAVE A SPARKLY DRESS TO WEAR~~~ OH NOOO!!! 

PS. looking through magazines for “New Year’s Eve Party Dresses”, most have forgotten that it is very cold here during countdown season. Will the dress have the same effect when I have a coat, scarf, and tights? 

PPS. Winter is a time for me whinge….

Tourists in Phuket

The past week has been rather surreal - comprised of crystal clear sea water, amazing views, crazy spastic little fishes, corals, caves, adventure, sun, pineapple, all sorts of unthinkable smoothies, buckets of alcohol, ladyboys, extremely hot and sexy but slightly disturbing transexuals doing all sorts of unspeakable things, and not to forget lots of shopping. Ahh shopping. A holiday is never complete without some shopping.

Now, I really want to just shove all 1000-something photos up in your face and point at each one and tell you a story or just scream “LOOK! LOOK! Isn’t it beautiful?” Well, the problem is that I kinda did that and the people whom I did that to weren’t exactly too impressed. People are usually less enthusiastic about things they didn’t experience themselves.

Now you all know that I love taking sneaky photos (or not so sneaky photos) of people I notice. Usually they’re a bit funny. I hope you see the lighter side of things and enjoy them. Maybe even laugh a little.

[ now as a professional who deals with strict confidentiality issues all day long, please do bear with me and let me have my fun…it is my blog afterall. And if you do know any of the people in the following photos, please please please do not identify them. And hopefully do not show them this blog. And if you are in the photo and you are reading this, I am by no means making fun of you. You are an awesome individual and thank you for stopping upon my blog. Hehe..]

There’s always a thing or two about flowers by the beach.

And once again you have it. Flowers.

So far they’ve all be asian ladies. You Asian Mamas sure know a thing or two about poses.

And….action!

Gotta have the perfect shot. Bring on the props.

Oh and this was the captain of our speedboat. Jennifer….the man?

Trust the Koreans to wear matching holiday apparel. Even when not on holiday!

I asked them Korean boys, “Can I see your photo?” And it was of the yellow top guy eating the rocky island. Interesting concept.

Pretty Korean girl yells, help help, whilst her friends just watch. Well,  I watched too. Secretly thought, “Served you right for being so pretty.” No, I didn’t really.

Did somebody say Russian?

Russian men seem to love their speedos. Like Asian mamas like their scarves.